I am a multipotentialite. I could also be called a polymath, or a renaissance person. I just prefer Monk, but I digress. I am socially and emotionally homeless. In the modern world of singular passions and dedicated specialists, there is no place for people like me. I am knowledgeable, to various levels, of a great many things. I am also reasonably talented at a fair bit too, and would be even more so if I wasn’t disabled. I am a lifelong learner, infected with wanderlust and an insatiable curiosity. The primary aspect separating me from well-behaved children is knowledge and/or fear of consequences. In many regards, this is a wonderful thing. Like them, I am inquisitive, intuitive, and innate chances of failure do not automatically prevent me from trying.
I enjoy being both creative and technical; we have two halves of our brain, why not use them both? I embody fusion. It is not uncommon to see me practice Internal Martial Arts to Metal (music) or become noticeably energetic for something Ambient. My average music composition, despite being highly mechanical in structure, flows and combines ideas from several genres simultaneously. I enjoy originals, covers, remixes, and mashups with equal fervor. My visual art is often brightly colored accompanied by dark written reflections. I’ve frightened people away by being unconditionally welcoming. I am in-the-box, out-of-the-box, and pondering the box at the same time. I ponder pondering.
Beyond just written, visual, and aural works, I am also highly interested in the affairs of the world. I will talk: politics, religion, philosophy, economics, and ethics. I will happily go deep with you, provided we can remain respectful and err on the side of objectivity. I’m good with pattern analysis, but I’m always looking for how it (they) will be broken. I can appreciate a joke as much as the next guy, directed at me or not and I understand the value of well-placed humor.
I’m also consistently researching, learning, absorbing. Astrophysics, agriculture, alternative energy, and alliteration, just to name a few. The advances of human knowledge and potential fascinate me. What we know now, in comparison to what we knew even a short while ago is profound. I enjoy learning how everything is interconnected and our triumphs against ourselves. I like to dream big. I like to play ‘What If’ scenarios in my mind, wherein we no longer sabotage ourselves. Then, I turn on the news. Even then, that means more research.
I am always incorporating stimuli from my environment into myself. If you enjoy being with a stoic, static, individual: avoid me. I will change my mind, and respond accordingly. I am also not of one to have assumptions made. I may be boisterous and passionate for a short burst, then be quiet in subsequent moments. No, I’m not upset. I enthusiastically shared what I wanted to and had nothing further to add. Perhaps my silence is due to mental processing, or, contemplating. Quite often, I am quiet simply because it is not my turn to speak, I have said my share and am waiting for a response. As a chronically lonely person, I am nothing if not patient. Once you have given your response, you may have opened the floodgates! I tend to be able to listen, process, and respond very rapidly. User beware.
I am kind, but disciplined. I have a sense of hope, but it is guarded underneath experience. I am passionate, but measured. I am talented, but underutilized. I am aware of being taken advantage of, but accept it as the price of visibility. I am mentally quick, but do not expect you to be the same. I am a mentor, a prolific communicator, and exceedingly trustworthy. However, I know when to listen, how to learn, and things must be earned not given. I am just as comfortable maneuvering the areas of the heart as I am the mind. I am most often not appreciated until I am gone. I am a tinkerer with foresight; plan slowly and execute quickly.
I know of no one else who has accomplished so much, given away almost all of it, and has so little to show for it. Despite my abilities, awareness, adaptability, and alliteration (boom!), I am my support network. This is where the true tragedy lies: social and emotional homelessness, succeeding at almost everything you do except the one thing you want most.
Monk Anchorwind
5 October 2015