Just hours ago, I wrote about being held captive within my mind. I was mindful of my situation but understood I was hurting and did not now to begin healing alone. I was outnumbered and could have used some reinforcements. As if it was the perilous climactic scene in a movie, reinforcements arrived. Even better, though, the reinforcements offered more substantial aid and more numerous than expected. They gave me the opening I needed to break through, and with a smile on my face, I took full advantage.
I almost always feel a ball of energy in my solar plexus. I’ve heard some people describe it as passion, others as Chi. Sometimes this feels cold, hollow, and akin to a vacuum trying to draw in everything around it. This nervous state cannot be ignored, but instead only managed. I must simply resist the urge to yield and act poorly. However, other times this energy pours forth in an outwards direction with warmth and is invigorating. Akin to an engine of love or joy, I find myself inspired to tackle what lies before me with vigor. It can be overwhelming when coupled with racing thoughts of grandeur; I can bite off more than I can chew. I need to be present, but having outward energy is exponentially preferable in virtually every way.
I had support, something I don’t always have. The feeling in my solar-plexus changed from one of fear to one of hope and gratitude. Music made me happy again, and I found myself doing tasks effortlessly again. My appetite returned, and I wanted to cry for entirely different but positive reasons. To someone forced to fight, being given an opportunity for peace is a godsend. I understand there are times of struggle and times of peace, but I feel the former are long and destructive while the latter is short and inadequate for repair, let alone progress.
I was given an opportunity to change the tide, given a chance to improve the situation. Often, that’s all I need is an opening, and I can ride the momentum forward. I’ve accomplished more today than I have in some time, and it’s only mid-afternoon. I will finish this thought and continue to make progress while I still have this energy. The path before me is lit, and I will walk it with confidence until it goes dark once more.