In the Anchorwind Project, \u00a0to a large extent, I feel like I’ve said what I have needed to say; I’ve been doing it for almost 10 years, I would hope so.\u00a0 In that almost 10 years I’ve published, for all to see\/hear, around 1200 pieces.\u00a0 That comes out to a nice neat average of around 12 pieces a month, 3 pieces a week, if distributed evenly.\u00a0 That’s a fair bit of: graphics, essays, stories, poems, and songs.\u00a0 Whether you just skim the most recent offerings or you dig into archives,\u00a0 there is a high chance I’ve taken you -somewhere- mentally, or emotionally.\u00a0 I’ve left you thinking, or feeling, -something.-<\/p>\n
These emotions could have been angry,\u00a0 as you either passionately (dis)agreed with my essays of desperation,\u00a0 hoping-against-hope tomorrow will be a better day.\u00a0 These emotions could have been sadness, as you gazed upon my artwork and felt the burden of my life and experiences weigh heavily upon you.\u00a0 These emotions could have been dread, as you listened to Mother Machine and her mechanical sounds gnawing at you beat after beat.\u00a0 These emotions could have been spontaneous joy, as you followed Crysania, Spikelangelo, and the rest of the Quin on their Reference-laden adventures through the mists.\u00a0 Whatever it was,\u00a0 you felt -something,- and my job as a creative person was accomplished.<\/p>\n
I can talk about: I’ve earned this many views, awards, frontpages, museum exhibits, newspaper articles,\u00a0 etc., but in truth that doesn’t really mean much to me beyond a way to get certain people to be quiet.\u00a0 Anyone who has seen my office will testify to that,\u00a0 for you will not see any evidence of any of the aforementioned on my walls.\u00a0 My trophy cabinet does not exist in any visible display.\u00a0\u00a0 I break my works up into different brands or names depending on where I’m at or what I’m doing.\u00a0 I enjoy anonymity, and I enjoy letting my work speak for itself.<\/p>\n
I still have the desire to create, but I am inherently a supportive person and I sincerely want to help other people achieve their visions, goals, etc.\u00a0 I want to be a part of something beyond just me. I want to be more of a producer now,\u00a0 help refine someone else’s hard work into something they are proud of and are excited to present to the world.\u00a0 I have thoughts about running a local esports league, or at least local charity marathon (GDQ style) events.\u00a0 I want to be a part of a RPG group and make graphics for them:\u00a0 t-shirts, wallpapers,\u00a0 things that not only give the group more of an identity but draw interest from other people.<\/p>\n
Yes, I’ll continue to publish things for my own stuff here and there but I am not driven to say anything that I haven’t already.\u00a0 I don’t want this project (Anchorwind) to turn into: “America sucks, Trump is Bad.” is a lot of what I want to write;\u00a0 it is tremendously hard watching helplessly as most things you once believed in, had hope in,\u00a0 were told were true,\u00a0 are not only fictitious – but by our own hands.\u00a0\u00a0 I do take solace ‘by our own hands’ does not come anywhere close to encompassing everyone,\u00a0 just mostly one significant demographic.\u00a0 However, as a child I never imagined all the real monsters in the world would be people.<\/p>\n
The feeling is many, if not almost all, \u00a0of those monsters are simply beyond my ability to impact in any real way.\u00a0 That energy simply does not extinguish itself, so I must learn to do something with it.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 As a young man I was too naive to believe in the system as much as I did. \u00a0Having the experience of a disabled war veteran,\u00a0 I came to understand the system isn’t broken – it was designed this way.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 The Right is corrupting the process even further, but these are results of systemic failures that have been ongoing for longer than I’ve been alive.\u00a0\u00a0 We don’t need to “fix” the system,\u00a0 we need to outright change it.\u00a0\u00a0 That takes a lot more than one broken artist looking for direction, purpose, and validation.<\/p>\n
In the meantime,\u00a0 I can take the energy of wanting to help,\u00a0 wanting to make an impact,\u00a0 and think on an individual scale.\u00a0\u00a0 While I have many faults and limitations, and even that is an understatement, I do have a few not quite redeeming features that can be put to use:\u00a0 I’m remarkably patient,\u00a0 I’m surprisingly intuitive, I’m reliably affable, I’m generally situationally aware, and I’m allegedly creative at random intervals (:D) .\u00a0\u00a0 Perhaps I can take these scarcely acceptable features, my seemingly unending energy levels, and sincere desire to help people and do just that:\u00a0 find a project outside my own to better.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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